Whenever I start a new project, I am incredibly motivated. I’ll get so much done in so little time. But then, after awhile, I start to get in a lull. I won’t feel like working on it at all. I’m not sure if I get bored with it so much as that I am burned out by all the work I did when I first started. I think I should probably not work so hard at the beginning, and maintain focus throughout the project instead of working all at the beginning and giving up.
One time, in a EECS1530 lecture about classes and object-oriented programming in C++, Dr. Miller said this:
“If I call foobar on you, I can access your private members.” -Dr. Lawrence Miller, University of Toledo
I think the music director at 102.9 is out to get me.
Driving home, they played the three songs that hit me most in a row and I realized something. The only thing harder than trying to drive with her in the car and holding back tears is trying to drive home with tears flooding your eyes alone.
But why would someone who was so struck-tortured even-by those three songs, play them over and over again when they finally do get home? Love.
It happens every time we’re about to break up. I’ll think how much better things will be. How much more time I’ll have to concentrate on other things like school, work, and (selfishly) myself—how much more I’ll be able to do, how much more free time I’ll have to do whatever I want, and so on. But then, it’ll hit me. I’ll lose her. And in a moment, all these concrete plans you had laid out for your free self are tossed into a mixer with those treasured memories you once shared.
The thought of breaking up doesn’t seem so bad when you’re sitting alone, or talking on the phone, or online, or even with her in an argument or a time of particular stress. It’s when you look at her, and think of the pain you’re causing her, that you crack. And something inside your throat aches… and the tears flow from your eyes. You begin to see yourself as the big jackass she’s seen you as for days.
But we don’t see eye to eye. Is it just better to cut your losses and move on, no matter how hard that will be/already is? Sometimes it seems like it can’t be, and other times it seems so easy.
(I know you’ll probably read this. And maybe a part of me wishes you did. I just needed to say this, and not directly at you.)
My girlfriend, Jenn, has informed me that the reason she doesn’t visit more often is because I don’t post enough.
I try to post whenever possible, and whenever I have a brilliant thought, but it seems as though I have to try to post more.
I will post at least once a day-maybe even every few hours-just for her. I can’t have her keep going to other blogs, can I?
What does one do when their girlfriend visits some other guy’s blog more then they visit their boyfriend’s?
They probably shouldn’t link to it, for starters.
Yay for 40gb hard drives for $20!
Boo on old BIOS that don’t see them, freeze up when trying to detect them, and make the user think they have a dead hard drive on their hands.
Yay for BIOS flash updates!
